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truth, lies, and videotape

I go back to court on the 5th of April, and I cannot wait. I want more time with my son. Right now I get him 3 days a week, 4 hours a day. I cannot bring him back to my friends house because my ex “doesn’t find it suitable”. I have no idea why, its clean and there is a place for him to sleep, and food to eat, and toys to play with, but thats not good enough. To say that i’m frustrated is a gross understatement. My ex even went so far and said I brought him home last Wednesday with dried poop on him. My son has been potty trained since he was 2, and he ALWAYS tells you when he has to go potty. They showed me his underwear, and it looked to me like he wasnt wiped properly, or he had a wet fart…tmi i know. But, in no way did it look like he pooped his pants and it dried up. my ex then called mke white trash, and lots of other names and said I should just step out of my sons life. 

It hurts, worse than most people know. Not only because hes undermining my ability as a mother, but also because this is someone I used to love with all my heart. We always said short of pysical or emotional abuse etc…, that we would never trash the others parenting ability. I guess promises are easily broken in his world.

Jadles, If you ever see this, I just want you to know…you mean the world to me. You are my bubba, my turtle, my life. I will fight til my last breath to have you in my life on a more permanent basis, and NOTHING will ever take me away from you.  


Add a comment March 24, 2012

its been a long time coming


I haven’t wrote a post on here in such a long time. So much has changed, I don’t even know where to start. I found out in April of 2010, that my now ex husband was cheating on me. We tried for a few months to work things out, but he didn’t want to. We were officially divorced in May of 2011. I found out he had his mistress for a year while we were married, that he had her in our house around our son, and sooo much more.

Jadles is now 3 and so smart. he knows his alphabet, counting up to 20, his colors, most of his shapes and is pretty good at drawing faces. Unfortunately right now, I don’t get to spend a lot of time with him. His father has the majority of the custody, because I don’t have a steady place to live. Well that’s not entirely true. Im living with a friend right now, but thats not good enough according to my ex. 

i was living with my sister and her husband, and they weren’t paying their rent, so we got kicked out. my ex then took me to court a few days later and had a modification to our custody plan done. I signed Jadles over, because I wasn’t sure if we were gonna be staying in a motel, and I didn’t think that was fair to him. I thought I was doing the right thing for my son. 2 days after I signed the agreement, one of my friends I’ve known for almost 20 years, asked if I wanted to stay with them, in exchange for babysitting her 2 kids. I’m in the process of trying to find a house (to buy), and find work. My ex and I are now in a very nasty custody battle, and right now, all I’m trying to get is a few nights a week with my son. I decided to bring this blog back, so that someday, my son can read the truth. 

He deserves to know, that mommy didn’t abandon him, that I never stopped loving him, and that I thought I was doing what was in the best interest of him.

this picture means so much to me. It was a few days before his 3rd birthday, and we had a small party for him at a friends house. he had so much fun, and so did I. he went to visit his dad the day after this, and I haven’t had him overnight since. 

















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